After we found out we had lost the baby I heard the song “Life Ain’t Always Beautiful” on the radio. It talks about how life isn’t always how we thought it would be but in the end it is a beautiful ride. I’ve played that song more times then I can count since that moment. In fact I am listening to it right now. It gives me strength to make it through the day.
I decided not to lie to people just to make them feel more comfortable when they ask me how I am doing. (Ok that’s a fib, I lie to strangers when they ask. I don’t feel like they need my life story.) I am not doing okay. I might never be ‘okay’. I am doing good to make it through the day. One minute at a time. One breath at a time.
The hospital gave me a memory box full of various items for Andrew. One item them gave me was a plush lamb that they used in pictures they took of him. We call the lamb “Little Lamb” and I carry it around with me everywhere I go. He’s in my purse, tucked in my arm, and cuddled by my side at night. We went to McDonald’s for breakfast on Sunday and I thought that I had left him at the restaurant. I was hysterical. I felt like I had left my child at McDonald’s. My husband quickly turned around and ran into the restaurant at record speed. Sneaky Little Lamb was hiding in the van.
I don’t cry that much because I know when I finish crying that all I will have is a stuffy nose. It won’t change things. My son will still be gone and I will still be here to pick up the pieces. But what I do is pray. I pray for Andrew. I pray and tell God things I would like him to tell Andrew for me. I pray and ask that God give me peace and comfort. I would not be functioning today if it wasn’t for prayer.
Your prayers have given me such tremendous comfort and strength during this time. I can feel your prayers. I can feel them wrapping around me in bed at night and whispering words of comfort and encouragement in my ears. It is such a tremendous blessing that I have so many amazing people praying and caring about my family.
I covet your prayers for tomorrow. My daughter is going to Children’s to have her appendix removed. For those of you that missed that part of the saga, Emily’s appendix ruptured on August 27th and we did not know until September 5th when we went to the E.R. at Childrens (after having taken her to the doctor twice who was treating her for a UTI). She had a softball sized abscess in her stomach and she was admitted to Children’s and stayed for 8 nights while they drained the abscess and healed the infection. The appendix had healed itself so we were able to wait to have the surgery. Waiting allowed her abdomen area to heal so the appendix can be removed laparoscopically. She should only have to stay overnight at Childrens.
But since I lost Andrew between then and now, I am twice as anxious and nervous. So any prayers, words of encouragement, thoughts, etc that you can send my way would be GREATLY appreciated.
I thank God that I was given the motivation to start this blog so that I might know you. You are such a tremendous blessing to me.
Kathy says
Darlin’, I am worried about you! If you are carrying the little lamb around with you every where you go and are not feeling ANY better, then you need some serious counseling. You have 3 very important reasons to get better…your husband, your daughter and your son that are here with you. I’m know it is hard, I had a miscarriage years ago at 19 weeks before my other 3 children were born, but death is a part of life, and life does go on.
I truly hope that you seek out some counseling and talk to your OB doctor. You sound as if you are suffering from post partum depression. You are such a sweet lady with a beautiful family and seem to be dwelling only on this. I don’t mean to sound harsh, but you and my daughters are the same ages & you do make all your readers seem as if they know you personally (to me that’s like a daughter!)
I would encourage you every day to “listen to the song of life”, and I will keep your daughter’s well being in my thoughts. Bless you, sweetie, and please get help.
Kimber says
You’re in my thoughtsd and prayers, and so is little Emily.
Gina says
I have been and will continue to pray for you and your family. When I read how you feel it reminded me of how I felt when I lost Lael. Oct 23rd found out I lost my baby and Oct. 30th my little Lael left my body. This is always a very hard time of the year for me. There is so much pain you don’t know where to put it. You will never be the same again-I know I’m not. But eventually you’ll have a new normal and your joy will rise up again. Keep clinging to the Lord and by His grace you will make it. Oh the great joy when you see your Andrew someday! Your kids will help bring in the sunshine as well. I teared up about your lamb and how your husband ran in there at record speed. How blessed you are to have a man that gets it and loves you so.
laura says
you dont have to cry, i just did enough for all of us. i dont mind the runny nose, i got a free box of tissues from my mom in the kleenex promo.
Lorrie says
God Bless you and your family. I pray for you and will continue.
KATHY says
Kristen, I hurt so much for you and your family. Remember God brought Emily
through the biggest fight, and he will be with her now. You are surrounded with
lots of people that love you through your blog. You are important to each of us.
You have filled our lives with possibilities, you have shared and taught us
how to do things we didn’t know were possible. Our prayers will rise to God,
and he will hear each and every one. He will sustain all of you, and bring you
through this darkness.
Love, Kathy
Amanda says
I lost my first daughter at 29 days old 8 years ago. Reading your post brings tears to my eyes because I remember the pain it caused. Things will get better but it does take time. Life does go back to a new sort of normal. You learn to appreciate life more and that is the biggest blessing I got out of it. However that did not come for a long time it is a journey and I will be praying for you along yours
Racheal says
I tear up every time I read one of your posts on the loss of your son. I lost many children as my husband and I struggled with infertility. It is never easy no matter what the circumstances are, or how long the gestation period was. I was devistated each and every time, but now as I look at my boys now 7 and 2 and love every moment I have with them, it makes me realize how lucky I was to know just how precious they are and how fragile that line is. I have thought of you and your family often and hope you will find some joy in the near future. My prayers are with your family, I hope your daughters surgery goes well.
Dy says
I know it’s hard not to be MORE anxious about your daughter’s surgery after your devastating loss of your son….but God is in control…and she is in good hands and she’ll bounce right back….praying for your healing mom’s heart!
love,
Dy
a pastor’s wife in NC
mandy says
I just started following your blog but I have read your posts about your loss and while I can’t relate as a woman I put myself in your place. I suffered a miscarriage early on before I had my twins. My twins were miracles because I thought I would never get pregnant and then came bedrest and their early arrival (32 weekers). After 3 weeks in the NICU I brought them home but I remember those sad days after my loss and how I wondered if I would ever know what being a mommy was like. Now I know and I thank God every day for my little blessings. We have also adopted a child after all of that.
You are strong and you will get through this. Everyone always tells me this but I don’t think I am that strong but we are really trust me you are strong. Take as much time as you need to heal though everyone is different in their healing process. God loves you and so do your readers even the ones who just started reading like me. I am praying for you and your family. I know God is wrapping his arms around you right now and I wish I could do something to ease the pain. God bless you!
Shari says
Kristin, I am saying this Hail Mary
prayer for you and with you when you read it.
Hail Mary, full of grace. The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou amongst women,
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God,
pray for us sinners,
now and at the hour of our death. Amen
Time will help heal your family, but you will never forget your sweet Andrew.
I also suffered 2 miscarriages very early into a pregancy, but the babies were not vialable enough to have seen it or celebrate it’s journey into Heaven. I may have never met them, but I hope God will have them big enough for me to hold in Heaven.
It has been 28 years ago and I’ve had 3 healthy children after, but I’ll never forget those babies I carried for 8 weeks.
God Bless you,
Shari
Laurie says
Losing a baby is so hard. I think it’s wonderful that the hospital gave you such a sweet reminder of him. I will certainly be praying for you and your family.
Leigh says
I do pray that things go well for your daughter and that you heal. I will continue to pray for you and your family. I can not even imagine the pain you’ve been in. God bless!
Renee B says
Many, many prayers are being sent your way. I certainly know what it is like to feel like you are getting hit with too many things to handle at once but you will develop a new appreciation for the smallest good things. I hope everything goes well for your daughter in surgery!
Heather says
Huge hugs, bigger prayers. Hang in there mama! You’re doing a great job! <3
Ruth says
Kristin,
My heart aches for you and your family. Aches to the point where I am at a loss for words. I am thankful that the Holy Spirit intercedes on my behalf for you. Praying for you all- for tomorrow and the days that follow.
Clare C. says
Praying for you, Emily, and your family. Hold on…
Amy says
Praying for you and Emily right now and will continue!! I pray that she is super brave, that her recovery is quick, and that she has as little pain as possible. I had laparascopic surgery 2 weeks ago and I had very little pain and recovered very quickly. I am super hopeful that Emily has the same experience tomorrow. And I will especially pray for peace and comfort for you. You have been dealt quite a difficult hand lately which just confirms what a strong person you are. Blessings to you and your family.
Amy says
As I have said before, I know your pain and can understand your grief. God is the only comforter that can truly take away your pain, fears, and anxiety. HE will help you through and you will get better. Honesty is the best policy for true healing to begin. I admire you and thank you for sharing your life with us. God bless you and your family and you are in my prayers.
Tallymomma says
Don’t hesitate to speak to someone professional if things get too bad. My dear friend lost her baby at 38 weeks and it took many prayers as well as much counseling to help her cope. We send up our prayers for you and your family.
Jennifer says
You and your family are in our thoughts and in our prayers! I don’t know what people do that don’t know the Lord when they go through things like this. It is so wonderful to be able to take our cares and concerns to Him and know He hears and will be with us! May the Lord give you special comfort during this time of your life!
sara says
Thank you for putting words to what you, me and too many other women have gone through. At the time, I thought I would never feel ‘normal’ again… I didn’t even know what normal was anymore. It took me a long time to realize how much the grieving process changes a person but it is a necessary process no matter how difficult it feels. I was forever changed after my losses but, after a lot of time, I stopped feeling consumed by the grief. Even though you don’t know most of us we are all here praying or thinking good thoughts for you. Please hang in there.
Melissa says
Lots of prayers for strength, peace, and healing going up from your “cyberfamily.” Much love to you!
wendy says
have read your blog for a very long time….don’t know how you make it thru all the bad things that have happened to you and your family but you do and all will be well with Emily’s surgery..hang it there …prayers and thoughts are will you all
Vicki says
One of my favorite scriptures is Proverbs 3:5-6, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understandidng; in al your ways acknowledge him, and he will direct your paths.” This scripture helped me get through my recent miscarriage. I pray it brings you as much comfort as it has brought me. Praying for you and your family :)
Jennifer Lemke says
You were on my mind and yesterday and I started typing sending you a hug but I felt silly, now I wish I had. The next time God taps me on the shoulder and says send Kristin a hug I will do it.
Donna says
Kristen, you are in my thoughts and prayers. You are living every mother’s nightmare. God will give you the strength to get through it. I think he is using you to help others in similar situations who probably think they are the only one this has happened to. We just don’t expect women to lose babies in this country. It is not how we see ourselves. You have opened this up for people to say, yes this has happened to me also. I am not alone. I am not a freak. Bless you for that.
I know how difficult it is to go back to the hospital after this. Several years ago my sister passed away in the hospital and then I had to take my daughter in for adnoid surgery. I was so scared but could not let her see that. After they took her back I just sat down and cried. We have only so much control over our emotions. When you feel like crying, let it out. The physical release is good for you. Keep the faith.
Tammy Ward says
I lost my son Jan. 5 2008 and the pain never goes away, but becomes part of your heart and Gods grace allows you to live with it. Eventually you will feel better and be able to smile again. You and your family are in my prayers.
Melissa says
I feel some of your pain. I had a miscarriage 5 yrs ago. I too wasn’t ‘ok’ for awhile. Shortly after that, my sister-n-law went thru exactly what you did. It was extremely difficult and took time to get thru. God will heal your pain and make it easier. The thing that helped me so much thru all of that was knowing that our babies were with the Lord and they both were perfect in his arms. I’ve been blessed with 3 babies since then and my sister-n-law had 1 more. With God, you will get thru this and will be blessed. We love you;).
Debra says
Kristen, I don’t know you personally, but just from exchanging e-mails the other day…..I could tell that you are such a sweet, loving person….and I consider us online friends! You have such a kind and gentle spirit…You and your family are in our prayers..God will give you the strength that you need one day at a time.. and I am so sorry for your loss
love,
Debra
RK says
I can’t imagine what you’re going through, but I admire your strength. I know that doesn’t make you feel better, but I can’t think of anything else to say. Best wishes to your daughter. She’s been through a lot this year … sounds like a real trooper!
Yvonne says
Kristen,
I know you must be feeling anxiety over all that has happened to you lately, but I am sure everything will be fine with your daughter. Prayers still coming your way.
Jiya says
Sending best wishes for your daughter’s speedy recovery! And sending lots of hugs & prayers for you. Don’t feel guilty about grieving, or feel that you need to “just get over it”. You’ve had a huge loss and it’s ok to miss your baby. (I have dear friends who lost triplets in the 5th month of pregnancy, and I was just so shocked at the unfeeling things people told them). There was a special place in heaven reserved for your baby — and just think, when it’s your turn to join him, he’ll have the place all ready for you!
Amanda Johnston says
Dear Kristin,
I will pray for Emily for tomorrow.
Lord Jesus Christ, hear our prayers of behalf of Your servant Emily as she undergoes surgery. Bless her with faith in Your loving kindness and protection. Endow the surgeon and the medical team with ability and skill so that, according to Your will, this surgery may bring Your servant to a full restoration of health and strength; for You live and reign with the Father and the Holy Spirit, one God, forever and ever. Amen.
From the Lutheran Book of Worship because they say it much better than I could. I will continue to hold you and Emily in my heart throughout this time.
Sincerely,
Amanda/
Kelly says
You’ve got it. Prayers go to your precious daughter, she will be just fine and come through it on the other end running. Hugs.
WLB says
Many, many hugs and many, many prayers to you and your family!
Katie says
I am so sorry for everything you are going through. I can’t imagine exactly how you are feeling. I do KNOW for a fact that Heavenly Father is watching over you and only gives us trials that we can overcome. They are not easy and won’t go away immediately, but I want you to know that I believe that you will see and know your son one day! You will be with him after this life. Why would the Lord send you that little boy just to take him away forever? He loves us so much and wants us to be together forever. You can be a forever family. You and your family will be in mine and my families prayers.
Charity says
Kristin – you are a blessing to me more than you know. Thank you for sharing your pain with me and I will pray and believe in an easy and painless surgery for your little girl and pray continually for you strength in this situation. Thank you for letting me in your life and changing my life…I truly mean it!!
Kristi says
You have been in my prayers since your daughter was admitted to the hospital and through losing your son. I can’t imagine the overwhelming pain you are feeling right now. It is alright not to be “ok” I lost two babies between my 1st and 2nd child. One of the losses was traumatic. I don’t think I will ever get over it. But I do have hope that I will see my angel babies one day and I know they are taken care of in heaven.
From reading your posts, I know that you have a deep faith in God as well. Keep holding on to that relationship with God. Trust him to take care of you, your son and your family.
and please know that for every person that actually leaves a comment, there are at least a dozen more praying for you guys!!!
Kristi
Jeremiah 29:11-14a
Michelle says
I have been where you are. One day, I promise you, you will be “OK”. OK will not be the same as before, but it will be ok. One day you will be able to encourage another mother who has had to deal with the broken heartedness and give her encouragement too and assure her that she will be ok one day. Until then, hold your little lamb and keep it close. When I was healing, I did things like that too. I remember very well when my older daughter had to have surgery in the same hospital where I delivered our stillborn baby. I remember the hysteria. I remember finding out that I was pregnant with our next child and having to go back to the same military hospital–and DH was away with the military. I remember the terror I felt walking into that office. “One day at a time” as the poster before mentioned. That really helped me to live that out. To not get ahead of myself and worry about the future or what COULD be or what COULD happen(something I do quite often). God really did meet me in my time of need though and how much I could handle. I am praying that He meets you too in your time of need. I am wishing you the best from this side of the screen. Many prayers and hugs go out to you and yours.
Trish says
I am thinking of you and keeping you all in prayer. Your post brought tears to my eyes. I feel very bad for you all. I will keep my fingers crossed for Emily’s surgery tomorrow. If i could, i would wrap my arms around you and give you the biggest bear hug ever. I never had to suffer a loss like yours, but i almost lost my son at 25 weeks due to full placenta previa. I was able to hold on long enough and he is with us today after some time in NICU. I had lost his twin between the 7th and 8th week of pregnancy and the sac kept growing for a while. We had gone through several rounds of fertility treatment and it tore our hearts out. A good friend lost a baby at birth to trisomy 13, and it was so horrible to see her in such pain. I can only imagine the pain you all must be feeling. Just wanted you to know that we are thinking of you and praying for you. It will hurt less in time. In case you never heard of this, there is a great organization called “Now I lay me down to sleep” that is a group of professional photographers throughout the US that document the births of babies whose parents know they are very ill or will pass very quickly, and possibly still birth. It is all volunteer work and they are not intrusive. They are wonderful photos. Perhaps you could do a story on them to let people know they are there to help in this unfortunate event.
Barbie says
Our prayers are with you and your family.
breabella says
Kristin, I have learned through losing a child (in a much different way) that you never get over the pain. Ever. You just get stronger than the pain.
And you learn to live with it.
You are in my prayers.
It’s possibly the biggest storm you will ever have in your life, but you will survive the storm.
Blessings to all you love in this world.
sandra says
I will be praying for you and so glad that you are taking life one day, one hour, one minute, one second at a time. During dark times in my life that is the only way I could pray….. Lord just let me get through the next 15 minutes….thank him for that and ask for 15 more. God provides peace and his grace will see us through.
Angela Faklaris says
I’m not going to even pretend to understand what you are going thru. You are a strong woman. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. ~hugs~
Traci E. says
I am praying for you, Emily, and your entire family!
Penny =^.^= says
WOW, don’t hind your feelings Kristin! It just makes it worst. You will never get over it, let me tell you something Kristin I am 41 years old. I was the baby of 6 kids. My Mom’s first baby Kathy died at age 4 with Leukima. She never talked much about it to me, but she died in 1997 from cancer and that was all she talked about. She was getting to go now to see Kathy. That is all she talked about the weeks before. She even had a Lamb tombstone for her. She even made her own plans to be buried beside Kathy. She was 63 when she passed away so I am guessing Kathy died 35-40 years ago and she NEVER forgot it. I can’t image wat you are going through but please, please don’t hide it and let it eat you up inside. You are a wonderful person! He is a wonderful person too. I pray for you Kristin!!!
Mary says
Kristin,
We have used Children’s several times for operations that my son needed! They have an amazing staff and do an amazing job. I would be open and honest with them and let them know about the loss of your son and your anxiousness about your daughter’s surgery. You will feel them wrap their love around you and support you! They were amazing for us when my son went in at 9 months old. He was our only child at the time and I was hysterical. I will say a little prayer for you all.
Lani says
I am sorry I spelled your name wrong. I know it’s Kristin.
Sherri says
Praying for you.
Lani says
Kristen, I started praying for you and your family when your daughter first went to the hospital. We are going through one of the toughest times in my life (I won’t bore you with the details), and you have helped me. Even though we have never met, I think the power of prayer makes it as though we are as close as family. I will continue praying for you and your sweet family. I will pray Isaiah 58:11 over you: “The Lord will guide you always. He will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail.” Also, I am clinging to Psalm 34. May it bring you some comfort (v. 17-18) “The Lord hears His people when they call to Him for help. He rescues them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; He rescues those who are crushed in spirit.”
brenda says
Kristin,
I have been thinking about you and knowing that you are not doing well. How could I know that? because when I lost my first baby, i was not okay. I cried. A lot. And i was ANGRY. angry at everyone (it seemed like the only thing I wasn’t mad at was the dog because he faithfully stayed by my side.) I will never forget one day my mom came over and i was in bed crying and feeling sorry for myself. she came in and tried this “snap out of it” attitude and i was furious. why couldn’t everyone just let me be sad and grieve. it was MY baby and i wanted to cry..be mad..be sad. and i yelled at her. i mean, really yelled. then she started crying and said “I don’t know what to say to make you feel better.” and i said “that’s just it…i don’t want you to say anything. just let me be..” and she did. and every day got just a bit better (and i mean a bit.) it was slow. it was painful. but my husband encouraged me, supported me, and held me. and a couple months later. i was ready to try (when we lost the baby..i said i never wanted to have kids) but if we had never tried i wouldn’t have my wonderful 4 YO and incredible 1 YO. i think about my baby all the time…but i am finally at peace and i know you will be too. so don’t be afraid to be mad..sad..angry..scared. it’s OKAY. i will tell you that. and keep remembering that you are strong and your kids need you and love you and you will make it through each day. i will continue to keep you in my prayers daily. and you might want to think about joining a group. our church had one and it was wonderful. people going through the same grief helps you, trust me.
Ellen says
Sending hugs and prayers to you, Kristin…you’re so brave for sharing how you really feel with us. Have been thinking of you so much. Just like you’ve said, one breath at a time, honey.
Christine says
I think about you every day. I say a prayer for you, your family and Andrew. Be strong. This first year will be difficult. Prayers for Emily, too!!
Michelle says
You are in my thoughts every single day and I truly miss talking to you. I pray for you every night. Now Emily is in my thoughts and prayers too! Your children are lucky to have you and you do a wonderful job of taking care of them.
I am here when you are ready. Much Love!
Jessica F says
I am praying for you and your family.
jill b. says
praying now… praying tomorrow.
Hope L says
Lord,
You know today – knew it yesterday, even. Be with Kristin today and comfort and calm her. Be with little Emily and give her peace too. So thankful, God, that you hold the world in Your hands and have it all under control. I am thankful for Kristin, her ministry here, and the hope of eternal life that she has. Speak peace today, Lord.
Amen.
dana says
I am praying for you and your family it is a good thing not to block up those feelings you are having.Holding it in would make it worse for you and your family.You are very courageous and I thank you for sharing your story,with everything bad that has happened in my life in the end after all the pain and heartache that everything happens for a reason.I think god puts our faith to test ever so often and you must stand true and keep your faith.I think your story will help many women who have and will go through this.You are very brave and eventually your heart will heal some.The memories will always be there but it will get better.Until then we are all here for you praying for you.Take one day at a time.
Robyn says
Thank you so much for your openness and honesty during this difficult time. Sharing your story has inspired me to be more open with my feelings with the people around me. I will definately be sending many prayers your way during this difficult time.
eilene says
The good thing is that you know God is with you through all these! That is a very good reminder to keep going. You are such a blessing to a lot of us. Praying for you and your family…God will do all the healing-just trust…trust…trust…and trust some more! Don’t let it go! God Bless you!
ashleigh says
Thank you Kristen for all you do. You are a true blessing to so many people. I have kept you in my prayers daily through all of this and my heart truly aches for what you are experiencing. No words will change the way you feel, but, I wanted to know that I am remembering you to our Heavenly Father. These are the times with the prayers of others carry us. You have not been forgotten You are loved deeply by so many people. I will pray for your daughter tomorrow and I will have our church pray tonight also. God Bless You!
maria says
I sure hope you felt my prayer that I just sent up to God for you,Andrew and your little girl :) I also have lost a baby and I understand – time softens the blow somewhat. tho I never forget but Im able to handle it all better the longer time has passed, You are an amazing Blessing to us all on here- and I want you to know I wont stop sending prayers up for you
elaine says
All my prayers are with you, but always remember God never gives us a heavier cross then one we can bare. And when He closes one door he open other doors. Have faith and you will heal.
Judy says
Prayers and comfort to you, your daughter and the rest of your family through it all. As I read your blog each day I am proud of you for carrying on the best you can and still writing this blog (even though I don’t know you personally). Squeeze that little lamb today as you wait and know so many people are thinking about and praying for your family.
Stacey Lloyd says
Kristin,
Praying for you, Emily, and your entire family. He is with you.
Love,
Stacey
Tara says
Still praying.
Julie says
God is in control, and even knowing that, it’s so hard sometimes to turn our worry and anxiety on to Him. He wants us to do just that, but it isn’t easy. He loves us so much that He wants to take our worries from us.
It’s so funny that I submit a prayer request to my entire church for you and say ‘my friend’ Kristin. but in a long distance way, you are.
We will all be praying for Emily, for the doctors, for her healing and for Mom’s nerves. : ) God bless you.
Laura says
I remember reading about your daughter because we had just gotten out of Children’s ourselves because our baby had intesusseption ?? and had to stay overnight. I have been praying for you since I read that you lost your sweet Andrew and I will continue to pray for you and your family. I’m sure everything will work out for your daughter and you all will make it through her surgery. You are such a strong woman and I feel blessed to be a part of your life. Thank you so much for sharing your story with us :)
sunni says
we are all praying for you, kristin! and special prayers are being said for emily’s health and safety during her procedure.
Heather Banker says
I am so happy to see a woman who is not afraid to tell people the truth. People need to know that as moms, we some times have to push our own emotions down. My prayer for you is that when you and your family walk into that hospital tomorrow that the Lord will cover you with a super natural amount of peace and comfort. Be blessed
Donna Wright says
Know that I am praying for you. i have been there twice. i promise that God’s arms will wrap around you and you will be able to breathe again…in time. I’m also praying for your precious daughter and her surgery tomorrow.
Ida says
Sending (((HUGS))) wrapped with prayer for you and your family. I believe there is a purpose for everything, it is all part of a bigger plan. With your openness and honesty through this blog you are touching peoples hearts, you are helping people deal with losses just by sharing your journey. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. You have touched my heart.
FaLonda says
I am praying for you and your family, continue to stay stong. I am really loving your song of choice this morning, very encouraging.
Peace and blessings to you.
FaLonda
Amanda S. says
Awww… I so wished I was there to give you a huge hug, and I don’t even like to hug people. :) I also wished there was something I could do to help ease your pain.You have done more for my family than you will ever know and I am so grateful for you. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. And take your time, don’t feel like you are on anyone’s schedule to “feel better” You have been through soooo much. Something no mom should ever have to go thru. Just know you have THOUSANDS of people that care about you and we are all here for you if you need us. I will also keep Emily in my prayers to make sure everything goes ok, and praying for comfort and strength for her mommy. :)
Mandy says
Not only am I praying for you and Emily, but your entire family as well. I pray that God wraps His arms around you and comforts you during this time. I pray for you daily, and I’ve passed your story around to my other prayer-warrior friends. You are being lifted up in prayer. We all love you and your precious family.
Careen says
Kristin,
You are a courageous, strong, wonderful, Godly woman! It takes such strength, beyond belief, to acknowledge the pain and suffering you are going through, let alone, acknowledging it on this medium (internet/blog).
While reading your post, this passage came to mind: “Trust in the Lord with all your heart; and don’t lean on your own understanding. In all things acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your way. [Proverbs 3:5, 6]”
As always, I am here to listen, read, encourage and understand.
Careen
Lori says
K~ please know when I say I am praying, I AM PRAYING! I will pray for Emily and her doctors and nurses as well. I will continue to pray for your beautiful family and especially for the pain you all are feeling from losing beautiful Andrew. I say it often in my post to you, but you are a VERY strong woman. Continue to cast your cares at the Lord’s feet and He will walk you through this time, hand in hand! Much hugs and blessings to you all!!!
Lori
Nikki Cross says
I think one of the most important places to start is to never feel sorry or wrong about how you feel (not saying that you do this). You have every right to feel every emotion you go through and then some! I pray for you, your little girl and the rest of your family. We have to try to remember to focus on our blessings and just take it one day at a time. Your strength comes through in the words you share everyday. I hope someday soon each day starts to feel just a little bit easier than the day before.
Amy says
I am praying for you and your family. And you are correct the ONLY way you are going to get thru this is by prayer. Andrew is in heaven with Jesus and all the million other children that mommy’s have lost. And I take great comfort in knowing that when I get to Heaven I will know my son the moment I see him. Love and prayers, Amy
Lindsey says
Praying for you and thinking about you always.
Leatha says
I am praying for you now! I will continue to pray for you and for Emily. Do not let your heart be troubled, the Lord will get you through this and make you strong in Him. I will be praying continuously for you and your family!
Jessica Smith says
I will be praying. I know I don’t know you but I think of you almost everyday. You are always in my prayers. I know a fracture of your pain. I had a miscarriage last november. I was only 10 wks and the doctor said it was a false pregnancy. There was pain but I know it was nothing compaired to what you went through. I love your blog and I can say as your sister in Christ that I love you. God will get you through this.
Jessica B says
I am sorry your going through all of this. I am very proud of you for not lying and saying your okay when your not. That takes more strength and courage then people know. I will continue to pray for you and your family for God’s peace to envelope you. I will also keep your daughter in my prayers. Please update us as you can on how she is doing.