We had to go to the funeral home today to sign the papers for Andrew’s cremation. While cremation isn’t something that I would choose for myself, it seemed like the right thing to do for my son. We were able to have a good laugh during the process though. We had to sign a paper saying we understand that cremation is not reversible. It was nice to laugh even with my broken heart.
The memorial service will be October 30th at 11 am at First Baptist of Moody. It is very important to us that we honor Andrew’s brief life. Even though he never breathed on this earth, he is still our son. I held him in my arms. I kissed him. I loved him with all my heart.
The following weekend we will lay him to rest beside my father in law in Georgia. The funeral home there is digging his plot for free and selling us a small marker at cost.
My six year old daughter is so proud of her angel brother. She tells everyone that she has an angel in heaven watching out for her and playing with her Papoo (my FIL). She brings such a smile to my face.
My 3 year old seems to understand that mommy is no longer pregnant. He is being so sweet and loving towards me. I have to have this little lamb the hospital gave me by me at all times. He will make sure that I have the lamb and sometimes he will borrow it and sit and love on it. He is such a joy.
My husband and I are incredibly thankful for the wonderful prayers, support, cards and thoughts people have given us. It helps our hearts to heal to know so many people care about and love us.
I’m so glad you are having a funeral. I did this for my daughter lost to Triploidy at 19 weeks gestation. It helps to have that spot to go to and remember how important she was to me.
I have been out of the loop lately and am just finding out about your loss of your precious son. I know there are no words I can say that will make you feel any better. I know there is nothing I can do that will mend your broken heart. I DO know what it is like to loose a child you love with all your heart. I DO know that the more you love the more you grieve. I also know that time does not heal; God does. I am praying for you during this season in your life. May you feel God’s presence in all that you do.
If you are a “reader” I’d recommend “I’ll Hold You in Heaven” by Jack Hayford. It was a tremendous comfort for me after my loss.
Thoughts and prayers with you and your family!
Hugs
I am praying for your comfort everyday.
My heart goes out to you and your family. Know that there are many of us that share in your pain. My prayers are with you all.
My prayers are with you and your family.
Kristen,
I’m sitting here in my hotel room crying as I read your post. I am truly sorry for the pain you are going thru. It is hard to morn the loss and still be a mommy to our angels that need us so much more. I pray God gives you the strength you need now.
I too laid our baby girl to rest much of the same way. We named her Baily Rose. Our kids talk about her as their guardian angel too.
You are in my prayers and thoughts.
Tanya-CouponQueeny
Like so many others have said, I feel that I know you personally from reading your blog. I thank you for all the wonderful information and the great family stories that you bring us. I will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers. May God wrap his loving arms around each one of you!
Kristin: I am so osrry to hear about your loss. My toughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time.
Huggs,
Maria T O
Kristen, I’ve not been keeping up with your posts recently and this is the first I’ve know about this. I just want to extend my thoughts and prayers for peace to you and your family.
I wish I could hug you in person. Continued prayers sent your way.
I am so sorry to read of your loss. I also lost a little one prematurely a few years ago. Strength in family and belief helped my heart to heal; I hope your heart does, also. Thank you for blog and for your honesty.
My close friend laid her baby girl (18 weeks along) to rest two months ago. Her faith in God helped her more than anything in that time. You are blessed to have such a wonderful family/support system.
Bless you and your angel in heaven.
I love that you could laugh in the midst of such a painful moment – what a blessing laughter is! Your children are too precious, I love the stories you tell about them! I’m sad that we won’t ever hear about sweet Andrew, but I’m sure he’s having an even better time in heaven playing with Jesus!
P.S My brother’s name is Johnathan Andrew :)
Many prayers to you and your family. So very sorry for your loss.
OF COURSE WE CARE :-)
We welcome you into our lives, into our homes every single day and we read your words and then hear your stories, we laugh at your pictures and cry right beside you.
We may never have met, but we all certainly care.
What a wonderful family your little angel is watching over. (and be careful what you say and do… he IS watching over you! LOL)
God bless you and your family at this time and always. My heart goes out to you all.
Kristin, so heart-breaking for you and your family – trust God – He knows all things – look to Him for comfort – i will continue to pray for y’all!
You’ll continue to be in my prayers.
praying for your family, hugs coming your way!!
First of all, I am so sorry for the loss of your precious baby. I want you to know that I feel as if I know you from reading this blog daily. This post brings tears to my eyes! I am so thankful that you have a loving family- both on this blog, but most of all your husband, children, etc. Be strong, dear Kristin, and know that we all continue to pray for you and your family.
I recently stumbled onto your website and am a fan. I am reading your post and crying. I am so sorry for your loss. I am praying for you and your family here in NC
You are such a strong wonderful woman. What a beautiful family, a testament to the children you are raising. What a nice little blessing that Johnathon & God provided you with a laugh a such a difficult time. Having gone through a similar experience, keep your heart & mind open to the wonders & connection of spirit at this time. I strongly believe that Johnathon is waiting for the most perfect circumstances to be born into your arms. For whatever reason, this wasn’t the right vessel for him. Keep your heart & mind open to the beauty that always unfold.
You continue to be in our thoughts & prayers.
‘This too shall pass’ You are such a personable, outgoing person that it is easy to feel as if one knows you. I know YOU are a blessing to many that you are unaware of, so please know that lots of folks have you & your family in their prayers and thoughts now.
My heart goes out to you and your family. Andrew will always be in your heart. Know you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers! May God wrap his arms around each of you and give you comfort and peace during this time.
My heart aches for you and your family. I am sorry to hear of the loss of your precious baby boy, Andrew. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Kristin ,
I’m so sorry for your loss.
My heart is with you and your family
My heart hurts for you. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Your precious little one is safe in God’s arms now.
Continuing to pray for you Kristin. Many will be touched by Andrew’s life and your family’s love for him…. I just know it…. seeing it already here. Praying God is carrying you all through this time.
Continued prayers for your beautiful family. You are so strong and such a blessing to so many of us. <3
Kristin, I haven’t been on your site for a little bit with getting busy with life and was so sad to see that your little one had left earth. I have also lost a baby during pregnancy 7 years ago. My son Gabriel. We hadn’t chosen a name for him yet but once he was born I knew Gabriel was perfect since he’s now my guardian angel. I know and understand the pain you carry. My husband and I have had difficulty conceiving another child recently and it’s an empty thing to go through. I am keeping you in my prayers through this and I know that Andrew is in heaven awaiting his entire family. God be with you all.
Kristin,
I am so sorry for your loss. I pray that the Lord will bless you and your family with a peace that passeth all understanding. Please know that you are in my prayers.
God knows of your family’s pain and will provide the strength even you feel you have none. He welcomed your angel son and will watch over him until you all join him in heaven. Continued prayers.
My heart hurts for you. May you continue to find comfort with you family and friends. We will keep you in our prayers.
Continued prayers for you and your family.
I remember very vividly laying our son Christopher to rest in 2006. He was 16 weeks “pre-born”. One day, we shall all be together, but until now, my son waits for us in heaven….as does your son.
Sending you blessings.
My heart goes out to you and your family Kristin.
Was so sorry to hear of your news. We will keep you in our prayers to help you
make it thur one of the hardest events in your life . You are strong and those two little blessings you have with you will help you to make it thur. our prayers and love are with you now. Sharon
It amazing the strength that you can have when needed. I wish you and your family all the best. Take time for yourself and for your family. You are in my thoughts and prayers
Kristin,
I am sitting here crying and praying that god gives you and your family the peace you need. I am deeply sorry for what you are going through and there is nothing I can say to make you heal faster. Take all the time in the world you need to heal and enjoy your beautiful family.
Take care!
you are so strong! I will be thinking of you on the 30th
Don’t know if you have heard of or read Barbara Johnson but she is also a member of the “grieving mom’s club”. She talks about her child being her deposit in heaven. I’ll be sending up a prayer that God will soon mend your broken heart.
I am sitting here crying for you and your family!!! I am so sorry for your loss!!!
You and your family are in my prayers.
*hugs* for all of you. <3
sorry to hear about your loss
I have been praying for you and your family since the ultrasound that showed something was wrong. I’m so sorry for your loss.
Prayers are with you and yours Kristin. Especially your precious angel boy.
A very dear friend of mine lost her daughter at 31 weeks. It was heart wrenching. I went to the services and we all let pink balloons go in the parking lot following the service. It was a very sweet image to see them all float away. She has two other daughters – they were 2 and 3 at the time of her baby’s passing. The three year old was sitting with her parents during the service and rubbing their backs, it was so adorable and sweet to watch her caring for her parents at her young age. The service was beautiful, but it has to have been the saddest memorial I have ever been to. Her daughter was lost due to a cord accident. She just welcomed another sweet little girl in July, healthy and cute as can be.
I wish all the best for all of you and God Bless Andrew Jonathan, may he rest in peace and always be there to look over you and your family. You have a very special angel up there looking out for you now.
Kristen,
You are truly an inspiration (I’m sure you don’t feel that way) – but are remarkable. Praying for you and I am so touched by your daughter that she is proud – as she should be! You are in my thoughts daily! <3
My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you, Kristin.
Keep a positive spirit. You will see that little man someday. Remember he is fine and happy.
My baby Max will greet Andrew with a hug. He went to be in heaven in 2005 in much the same way that Andrew did. My children are now 11 and 10 and we still talk about their brother in heaven, watching over them. Hugs and prayers from the Kints.
Bless you.
Continued prayers, Kristen.
Sorry for your loss! You are one strong, remarkable lady!